I’ve talked about fear foods before, and most all of them contain fats. Avocados, nuts, nut butters, coconut, oil, butter, ice cream, cheese, etc.
-Avocados (Eaten on a daily basis)
-Nuts (I flippin’ love me a handful of walnuts)
-Nut Butters (Peanut butter=my life)
-Coconut (Love adding this to fro yo)
-Oil (Always roast my veggies with it)
Now onto the last three: butter, ice cream, and cheese. All dairy products with fat. They scare the s*#@ out of me, to be quite honest. But I did something I never thought I would do…I ate those foods.
We went to dinner at Whole Foods one night and of course, we did some shopping afterwards. I usually buy Earth Balance coconut spread for my butter but then I saw this Organic Valley butter. My eyes drifted to the bakery case and I saw a cranberry pecan roll. The butter went into my cart, followed by the roll. Later on, I ate that roll AND the butter. And let me tell you something, it was delicious. Delicious, as in, butter is too good not to pass up on a freshly baked roll. Delicious, as in, butter isn’t gonna kill me so bring it on.
Three Twins Ice Cream was on sale at Whole Foods so my mom got the Mint Confetti flavor. When we got home, I tried a spoonful and man oh man. It was awesome. So I grabbed a bowl, and said, “Eff you ED.” Ice cream will be back, for sure.
Ususally, when I make my egg scrambles, I add avocado for some sort of fat. But when I made it the other day, I realized part way through that there was no avocados left (which should be a crime). So I went with another plan in order to get some sort of fat: string cheese. I cut it up and added it to the scramble so it got all melty. Tasted uhhhmazing.
I don’t even know what to say to all this. To be honest, I’m speechless. If you would have asked me a year ago, heck a couple months ago, if I would eat these foods, the answer would one big NO. But everything in my life at this point is going really well. I’m happy. I didn’t feel the need to throw up or exercise those foods that I ate and that’s saying a lot for how far I’ve come.
Am I scared for the future? Heck yes I am. I have no idea what Texas holds for me. I am going into the new school year a much different person than last year. I’m more aware of who I am as a person. I don’t feel the need to make anybody happy, but myself. And looking back, I couldn’t have said that a couple of months ago. I don’t care how many roadblocks I have to run into in order to reach that happiness, but I will do it. Some day, some how. But for now, I’m good with where I’m at.